the eLmo kid...

2011-01-28T16:18:00.002+08:00

Such a long and spontaneous talk. after sayin and seeing everything and tearing my heart out. i think somehow i hv such an amazingly unique r/s. So many obstacles and compromising and acceptin on both sides. Yet we r still choosin to hold on to it. Mayb the end bcame nearer or further after this. Well we will noe when its time and we see the dead end. But we promise to make the best out of it.

2010-12-11T22:37:00.007+08:00

haii smtimes i hate it dat i am still studyin and studyin uni. the money frm loan to let me go study and the fact dat i cant wrk to earn money. sucks. sucks bad when i see my mum who still insist on goin wrk despite sprained her leg. damn sad. dun wan to see doc. stagger here and there. still insist on goin to wrk. doin those manual wrk. cleaning wrk. sucks. my parents r old but still wrkin. dat makes me hate my attitude towards them sometimes. but i only noe how to think abt all these but dunno how to do all these. real bad.

recently hven been able to juz fall aslp. lying on the bed for hrs and hrs. its a torture. i juz hope its probably exam stress.

2010-11-28T14:50:00.002+08:00

i swear i will nt cry again, for today. at least i will try to stop myself frm doin it.

i hv to concentrate on studyin. i hv to stop being so weak.

2010-11-23T19:50:00.006+08:00

i dunno why my grades sucks so much this sem...i hate it..nv seen so many Cs in a sem. sucks really. i thot i am alrdy a person quite heck care of grades but so many Cs has just crushed my heck care-ness. Esp frends around u gets As and Bs. Hate to admit it but it makes me feel more demoralised. Dunno wats wrong with me...dunno if its i'm not serious enuf or i juz really dun understand the mods this sem. So crap. Mood havent been gd these few days actually...things juz upset me but i hv to try to hide my emotions bcos i didnt wan to made things difficult for ppl and i didnt wan to behave like a child wanting attention.

2010-10-08T18:18:00.003+08:00

I juz wrote the longest email i hv ever written in a last attempt to save a frendship. i decide to tell u the truth u hv always so wanted to noe. i dunno if this is gonna destroy our frendship our rebuild our frendship but we shall see. hopefully it turns out to be the better side. finally smthin off my load. For mths this issue has been in my mind.

2010-09-28T19:16:00.002+08:00

Today met an old frend on the train back hm...talked abit...kind of felt like at least i'm nt the only one who changed...but somehow felt like how come i'm the only one being punished in a way. But anw it felt nice tokin to him although its juz a short while..but was quite nice to noe even though we werent dat close of frend last time but he still bothered to call me when he saw me...its really nice of him.

I cant help repeating this but i'm juz totally glad to hv known chen sao ah wain & qinqin...u all certainly dun judge me regardless of wat....u all always support me and cheer me up at times. It's really comforting to noe dat i hv u all.

Come to think of it...its always more comforting to noe dat someone would fight to hv u back rather than knowing that u will juz be let go when its time....

2010-09-19T01:02:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i juz selfishly hope there are lesser things to deal wif in my life cos i juz wan some constant peace in my mind but i noe life is nv gonna b easy and i noe ppl ard me are also filled wif troubles of their own and everyone tries to deal wif it. Mayb we juz nid to take a break frm everythin some time and then carry on back into dealin them.

2010-08-10T16:46:00.005+08:00

i guess my blog is officially dead again...but well...i'm afterall nt those kind of ppl who can think of things to write frequently...

Anw i was juz kind of inspired after readin my 2nd bro's blog and stuff which i juz found frm somewhere...i juz realised how much of a stranger we are...the things i thot of him doesnt seem dat right anymore. he toks abt his plan to buy my parents a condo and to bring them to many countries. isnt dat real nice? its really nice...kind of feel guilty abt my behaviour and attitudes towards him all this while.

Also shockingly found some same feelings and thoughts between us. i guess a 3 room flat wif 5 person in it really stresses ppl huh plus stubborn parents...a family nt so close but somehow tryin to get closer. Are we really suppose to feel fortunate alrdy...i guess so rite...hvin a home, a place to go back to, a family ard u even though nt much interaction exist....guess i shld learn to b more appreciative bfore its too late.

Suddenly i find my bro quite a wonderful guy. but i also feel it seems too late to wan to get closer to him...its juz awkward...afterall...it took me 20 yrs to get to see his real other side of him...a wonderful side i would say...and a side full of his own troubles...like real troubles...even readin them makes me feel real emo.

I guess a person cant escape encounterin regrets in life rite.

I decided to get a bday present for him for his bday next mth. when i realised also...i didnt get him any present bfore....nt once in my life....tell ppl we are bro and sis...i think no one would believe...

hongsiew

2010-07-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

worries and things juz occupied my mind so much dat i forgot to cont wrking towards being supportive...its my bad....

2010-06-01T23:07:00.001+08:00

PLS JUZ FREAKIN GIF ME A FREAKIN JOB!

IF NOT I WILL REALLY GO BANKRUPT SOON!!!

2010-05-22T20:41:00.002+08:00

Truth to say...i kind of feel scared...or uneasy abt everything dats happenin on me or mayb in me...mayb all these cant b compared to others who hv had worse than me but i've kind of really had enuf of clinics, hosp, doc, nurses, pills, med...watever...my body goin towards the bad side...i dunno...mayb i am juz kind of tired...hai...nvm...i juz hope everythin gets better....i'll b back to normal health....

2010-05-21T09:54:00.002+08:00

Ystd went marina barrage to picnic wif ccy! it was my first time there so i was like excited while ccy was more of like errr but anw hahaha i had fun! it was nice to picnic there!! nice place to chill too!! we shall go there again next time!!!!

2010-05-18T22:13:00.004+08:00

hai i think i'm really too skinny and too weak...i kind of hate my own body...being so skinny and weak...so prone to those stupid bacterias and stuff...when i'm tryin v hard to eat more and become fatter...these things always strikes me and throw my efforts dwn the drain...and make me even more skinny....feel so crap....and those med...those pills...i wonder how many pills i hv eaten for this yr...sucks....but i'm still gonna try harder to make myself stronger and fatter and healthier...these things juz arent goin to stop me...

2010-05-06T00:22:00.003+08:00

Ystd was really v v fun! hahaha most fun day at kbox ever....kinda shocked at myself to be so crazy wif them...really love them...my crazy frends haha qin qin, wain and chen sao! really glad i got to noe them....i really love to hang out wif this kind of v 'on' frends...hope we can meet up often too!!!

2010-04-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

sometimes i juz dunno wat to do or wat else can i do...i juz...cry....i juz cry....v useless of me....

but i juz really wan to spend every single day wif u...being happy....becos life is really short and unpredictable....

2010-04-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

Hai...its the time of the year again...the have to mug like shit time. Because stupid exams are coming real soon...and this time is consecutive 4 days of exam. Good luck mann. It can be said as 4 consecutive days of sleepless nites too.

Hai...so sad...i can only get to see ccy after one mth...after all our exams...hai...nt seeing u for 1 mth is gonna be the first time of experience i guess...well...juz hope we all do well and pull thru the exams...den it will b 3 mths of holidays!! So i shall jiayou and nt whine abt not getting to see u.

And to my frends....we shall all jiayou too!!! We shall all mug! and we can help each other too bcos the reading is really a PILE....but well we hv to try to study smart as said by Adlina.

Jiayou jiayou!!!!!!!! :D

2010-03-29T18:43:00.002+08:00

hai i guess i shldnt b so xiao qi rite...frendships arent juz worth so little bah...shldnt juz let such things hurt frendships.

but well i guess i'm juz too disappointed bcos hopes were too high..bcos i hv been lookin forward to everyone hanging out tgt and how great would it b to b able to cele my bday wif all of u..cos i thot it would certainly b damn fun...i dunno...mayb this matter doesnt even matter much to u all...or u all might nt even notice it but it means much more to me...but well nvm...its over anw...lets juz move on bah....

and i really had a wonderful time wif chen sao and qin qin dat day...u all put in really lots of effort...really appreciate it...love u all~~ oh and nt to forget qin qin's frend haha :D :D

and also~ ccy! hah i noe u put in effort la...i really love the card and the INSTANT CAMERA hahahaha and i'm still gonna say...its not a polaroid camera hahahha BUT I STILL love it lar!!! hahaha but i juz nv show out only la...dun sad horrr :D

2010-03-23T22:08:00.003+08:00

F**king pissed...i swear i will not let my children suffer like this....bcos the kid might hold grudge against me for the rest of our life...i will ensure the kid gets the space he/she deserves...

How am i gonna study when the tv is f**king loud and the laughing is also as loud...seriously...use some brain can...i wonder how am i goin to survive the exam period...

2010-03-11T17:57:00.003+08:00

HELLO~ As requested by Qin Qin! I shall dedicate this post to her!! since i guess she is the only few of the few who still reads my quite dead blog! sooo i shall post her photo hahahahahha mayb some day i will also post this one and only photo of her on facebook! so dun mess wif me hor Qin Qin! muhahahaha

So as not to embarrass u too much..i alrdy v kindly put the photo size as the smallest size! and no nid thk me i am not so 绝 hahahaha bleahhhh since not much ppl read my blog...u no nid scared embarrass also lar hahahaha But Qin Qin is really a v v gd frend! can make me laugh non-stop haha :) Dun kill me after seeing this post hor Qin Qin...my life is worth alot...

2010-03-07T00:24:00.004+08:00

Juz wanna say...today was a great day!! hahahaha kinda enjoyed myself though haha

Although this might b abit shameless to say...but...i really felt like we were a family :)

love ya~

2010-02-27T13:41:00.008+08:00

Been so long since i last blog...

Juz feel dat many things happened ard me recently...mentally and physically draining...totally...

What I truly gained frm these things is dat u really hv to cherish everyone,everything, every moment, every second. Dun do anythin dat will gif u a chance to regret because there is no time in life for u to regret anythin.

I juz really hope everyone i noe will always be healthy and happy.

2009-06-17T16:50:00.002+08:00

I think i am easily affected..v easily affected by others or things in my mood..u bad mood i also bad mood or worried..u sad i also sad or emo...u angry i might b angry too or scared and worried..esp if u r close to me...den u will totally affect me in every way...dats kinda bad i think hahaha aiyo i'm juz a silly emokid...think its true i actually nid more water nt more food..its to cure my hopeless tap which always runs loose...haha

Anw off to a cruise trip...be back on fri..anythin juz sms me! haha i will see it asap...take care and i will miss my lg lots! u take care too! :D

hongsiew :)

2009-05-29T10:29:00.002+08:00

Hello! Hahaha many things happened..gd and bad..mayb more of bad bah haha but nvm..currently rottin at hm cos i am jobless and quite lazy to find job now..aiyo..sian...smtimes i juz miss the past days in sch..dun nid to worry abt soo many things...but life is like this i guess..anw smthin i learnt recently...dun prepare urself for smthings too early...or even..dun prepare urself for it at all..cos when things dun turn out as how u prepared urself for it..dats when all the confuse,disppointment sink in...yep...lesson learnt...haha anw dat day when i went back ny for the drama nite..alot memories came back..haiz really miss those days..anw drama was nt bad ahha went mostly bcos to support my er zi/si han! haha

chialin, amanda, me and sihan!

hongsiew :)

2009-05-20T20:28:00.002+08:00

These days the most common thing i say to myself is " i'm findin trouble for myself..no one to blame"..i also kept tellin myself things are nt dat bad..actually there r these things which r gd enuf alrdy...i found myself kept tryin to find reasons and excuses to convince myself dat things r nt dat bad...smtimes i really think things are nt dat bad..cos there r always gd and bad for everythin...but smhow i juz find the bad is overwhelming....i thot my tolerance level is high..but i juz found out this is nt the case..the fact is i juz tolerate everythin..and everythin juz builds up inside..terrible amt of things...things dat i thot i forgot but actually its in some dark corner of my mind...i'm juz totally silly enuf to go in and even silly enuf nt to come out..or shld say silly enuf nt to b able to come out of it myself..

hongsiew

2009-05-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

Hmm i'm finally gonna quit my job..i think when most of my frends hear this they will cfm b like ''waseh! FINALLY arh! see u soo tired and so diff to take leave nv rest de! faster quit lar!'' haha anw hmm most prob next wk shall b my last wk liao..woah come to think of it..i wrk this job 4mths le! 4 freakin mths sia..longest stay at a job dat i hv wrk before...mann but everytime when i look at the pay i abit juz dun feel like quittin..esp when i see last mth's pay...mannn..but still i'm tired..so think i shall juz give myself a break liao..mayb i will juz find some slacker jobs on and off..if nt juz slack at hm lo...haha anw office is really full of politics...scary how a person can change faces dat fast...backstabbin and stuff..juz makes me wonder will i become like them next time when i really go out and wrk...hmm mayb bah haha...

hongsiew :)

2009-05-09T23:57:00.002+08:00

Smtimes i juz cant help but hate the fact dat i am in this family...really...y cant u all grown-ups b nice to each other and gif me some peace here...i'm sick and tired seeing u all like this...cant everyone juz b less stubborn and b nice and understandin to each other? i juz hope to live my life in a less tiring way...wats wif the stubborness mann...gif me a break...a grown-up actin like a kid...i dun see how this is goin anywhere...lets juz see how things will go wif ur stubborness and dignity...juz gif me some peace..really...

hongsiew

2009-04-23T21:48:00.003+08:00

I found out y i was so sian and stone alot even after wrk and even when i thot i was ok wif hvin lunch alone..its bcos i didnt tok much during wrk...dats y it makes me even more dun feel like tokin after wrk...but i think things r getting better bah haha takes time to get use to things...i juz realised ystd during wrk mayb i didnt say more than 30words? haha cos mostly i only say orh..ok...orh..ok..when ppl tell me to do wrk...dats mostly when i open my mouth..if nt i hv got nt much chance to tok at all...hmm ok...nvm i will get use to this mann...yes i will...its nt dat bad afterall...haha at least someone managed to call me and tok awhile...appreciate it alot haha

hongsiew :)

2009-04-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

Smhow i felt quite gloomy and emo and lonely after lunch today..but i thot i was ok wif hving lunch alone le...mayb deep dwn inside i still cant get used to it bah..or mayb bcos i keep seeing ppl goin lunch in grps or hvin ppl to acc them so i juz felt v lonely..thinkin mayb the whole company only i go lunch alone other than the supervisors...1 hr of lunch time everyday isnt dat easy to pass when u r alone..although i am nt exactly alone at wrkplace..but anw i ended up stonin alot today...stone until i miss my bus twice in a row cos i didnt see them comin and end up takin 1 and half hrs to reach hm when i usually take only abt 40min to reach hm...ah nvm..i will get use to this de....i guess this is how life shld b...things would nt always go as how u like it to b...hopefully i get my cheerful back....

hongsiew :/

2009-04-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hmm here to update haha first..the sociology interview...the writing test was juz like a comprehension test haha a passage and 2 qns..den came the 1 to 1 interview and mine was a china lecturer speakin angmo to me..soooo u all can imagine how i felt rite?! i had difficulty hearing at dat point of time haha anw he ask me...

china lecturer : do u read eng newspaper?

me : err...no...the most only watch channel news asia every mornin when i go to wrk on the tv mobile

china lecturer : oh ok..gdgd...erm den do u read eng story bk?

me : err...no...i read chinese story bks...

china lecturer : oh ic..gdgd...erm y did u get a grade D for ur gp? do u speak eng often?

me : ermm....i speak chinese more often...

few mins later...

china lecturer : hmmm frm ur background..actually ur chance of gettin in our course is nt v high...

This is sooo crap mannn...fine lorrrr i admit i'm chi-na cannn..i'm so nt angmo pai..

Anw..ystd went clarke quay crazy elephant wif ber justi darwin and raheel haha hmm dunno wat to comment..quite ok lar haha photos still wif ber...today went to visit the new shoppin mall at tampines..called tampines 1..its really v crowded there lor went to visit uni qlo wah muz queue to go in de lor haha visited kaili wrkin there...hmm the place quite cool lar oh den went to eat the super nice meatballs at ikea! hahaha

Aiyo..hate goin wrk now...dread thinkin i hv to eat lunch alone...hate sittin there and stone alone...or sit there and type alone..i noe this might nt seem a big deal to some ppl but it is somehow to me..think mayb its bcos i'm too used to hvin acc of other temp staffs..hvin acc for lunch time and to chat abit when at wrk..walk to bus stop..seriously..if u let me stone too much or being alone too much for a day..i will b v moody and stone alot for the rest of the day..hopefully i wun bcome like this..but i think i will...ok mayb i shld stop complainin and grow up to b independent rite? ok i will try to bear wif this and get use to this....haha but if anyone free can sms me and keep me occupied or better come dwn acc me eat lunch hahhaa

hongsiew :)

2009-04-15T09:14:00.002+08:00

Smtimes we shldnt hv any expectations so dat we wouldnt hv any disappointment...makes sense rite...but we juz cant help but hv expectations at times..at this point of time we may think realistically...den we would realise actually we shldnt hv those unrealistic expectations and so we shldnt feel disappointed..but this is where there is conflict between realistic and emotions..so wats the conclusion? i hv no idea haha

Anw today goin for ntu sociology interview and writing test..haiz super scared and uneasy lar...i hate interviews bcos i will stammer and cant think properly and speak properly on the spot..i hope its 1 to 1 interview and not grp interview..if nt i will stammer like shit and nervous like dunno wat..oh mann hopefully everythin turns out well...

Smhow i feel like quitting..any job offers or space inform me? den i jump over haha

hongsiew :/

2009-04-04T10:06:00.009+08:00

Here to update the events! Firstly is newyork newyork wif ber & justi quite a long time ago haha
me!

ber wif a v retarded pose hahaha

ber :)

justi :)

Next! Is my bday celebrations! hahaha Justi & ber prepared a suprise for me! Treasure hunt! haha First time got ppl do this for me! I really really love it & appreciate it! Hope i will hv this kind of thing again haha they placed my flowers wif notes to lead me to each step den finally to my present haha it was fun! Although the flowers they bought were for ppl to bai bai one...erm this part was abit like..erhem..i held the flowers whole day walkin ard lettin ppl stare..thinkin i'm goin to bai qing ming jie lorrr hahaha they v blur lar go buy this kind of flowers! but still v cute lar haha

ber writing the notes

justi wif the flowers

note for first step

last step

preparing...

me wif my treasures! :)

A dress for my present! haha

ber & justi thks alot! :)

they seriously look like flowers for qing ming jie rite?!

dinner at TCC at clarke quay ..nice leh their spaghetti

Had dessert at one dessert shop at clarke quay..super nice! & ex haha

Oh & had manhattan fish market for one of my bday cele for the first time :)

Another meal was a jap restarant in taka..hmm v disappointed for their dessert..look super temptin & nice but eat le...erm...disappointed...but anw went to eat wif peixian! Another dress for present haha a dress which she & i both smhow dun really noe how it shld b worn! hahaha

the dessert set which cost $8.80! freakin disappointed & ex sia!

Another bday cele was wif my jc clique at 're ben chun' ! haha had fun wif them..after dat we went clarke quay sat at riverside & chat! It was real nice to chat & sit tgt wif them! AND I HAD ANOTHER HUGE ELMO SOFT TOY for present frm them! AIYO...my beloved frends...look here hor...DUN BUY ANY ELMO STUFF FOR ME LE! cos i got enuf le! haha BUT still thks alot for the elmo..i still appreciate it! :) btw its the 3rd huge elmo soft toy for me le...oh mann..if anyone buy elmo stuff for me again i will throw it back to u! hahah kiddin lar

Anw had fun wif all my frends! Thks alot to those who wished me thru sms too! Appreciate dat! i love u all long long ~ :D

hongsiew :D

2009-03-23T21:17:00.002+08:00

Time passes by...think it also rubs away patience and understandin bit by bit or it may instead increase patience and understandin bit by bit..we always hope things will turn out to b better...or hope we r nt findin trouble for ourselves...there is always gd and bad side of everything...mayb dats y some things u juz cant bear to let it go even though u noe it may nt b rite for urself or it wil make u sad or angry...but ultimately..choices in life r made by ourselves so no regrets and no blames and we also grow up and learn things when we go thru all these...btw this is juz a random personal thot of mine..so my frends dun worry...i'm fine :) haha

hongsiew :/

2009-03-21T22:14:00.004+08:00

Yo! V long nv update liao haha...hmm got more pics to upload but mostly pics of food! haha some is taken like long long time ago but forgot to upload haha below is pic taken of my cute frend/colleague libing! i really love her haha she can make me laugh like dunno wat..but ystd was her last day at wrk..super sian..i will feel v sian and lonely at wrk le...its really lucky for me to meet her haha she is a v interestin and funny person...i will miss her...

me and libing!! :) she always like to take out a comb frm her pocket and start combing her hair! walao super funny lar!!

ice cream frm newyork newyork..went to eat wif ber & justi on wed

burger frm billy bombers

cheese fondue..nt really dat nice though

choco banana smoothie!!

seafood platter frm fish&co eaten wif jc frends long time ago

taken wif jc clique during cny haha long long time ago

Hven yet applied for uni..sian..no time and dun wan to go think abt wat to apply..but hv to soon..haiz..shall got think abt it now...

hongsiew :)

2009-03-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hmm actually got nothin much to blog abt...juz v tired after one wk of wrk and gatherings wif frends....think bcos nt enuf rest and walk in the rain wif all the rainy sunny weather..i got sick...haiz...flu and sorethroat...bad sia...hate it..my nose blow until droppin liao lorr...although v tired..somehow every single day throughout the wk got meet ppl after wrk..but i still love to meet them! its really great to meet up wif frends..esp after wrk...dunno y..smhow its a kind of motivation haha :) tml and sun goin ntu nus open hse haha

hongsiew :)

2009-03-06T20:28:00.004+08:00

Yo! everyone! hmm today took results..actually got nothin much to say..can only say quite relieved haha but everythin not final yet...hmm anw another wk past...finally restin haha btw..my v 'nice' angmo teacher wrote my testimonial in a SUPER interestin way...he mentioned 'quiet' in total 4 times!!! ''her quiet and steady demeanour''..''through quiet confidence''...''effective form of quiet leadership''..''allows her to amke her presence felt in a quiet yet significant manner'' like wat the hell!! he v ''cute'' horr is there such thing as quiet confidence??? quiet leadership??? presence felt in quiet manner???? walao...beat ard the bush to shoot me siaa he gd lorrr laidat my testimonial ruined by him liao lorr how nice~

btw i love this pic! so candid haha!

hongsiew :)

2009-02-28T23:29:00.003+08:00

Yo! haha went out wif justi and ber today! went bugis..a very dangerous place cos it sucks all my money in!! haha aiyo everytime go there will spend like quite alot leh alamak....but nvm..haha went to eat fish&co. for the first time!! super nice lorr! haha den after dat went to eat dessert wif justi haha seems like i eat alot today..and the thing is...when i come hm...guess wat my dad bought for dinner!! its fish and chip!! omg can..i had enuf of fish and chip today sia...but i still finished it! haha below got a rainbow pic! super nice! the first time i see a rainbow so clear and nothin blockin the whole rainbow! super duper nice! anw enjoyed myself fully and totally today! :D

rainbow!!

fish & co. !

me & justi

me & ber

hongsiew :)

2009-02-22T15:08:00.004+08:00

I'm so relieved and glad...so relieved and glad dat i cried again...juz wan to say this...i love my frends...there r many kinds of love in this world..it doesnt always refer to bgr..there r also love between frends...and i value this love really alot...lastly i love u all long long~ :) oh and forgot to post this haha

I learnt smthin...wat makes frendships grow stronger? it is problems...we solve it alrdy then become stronger...this is all part and parcel of life...we just go thru it bravely and tgt....we'll stay tgt de! (quote frm justi) :)

hongsiew :)

2009-02-21T20:38:00.003+08:00

Hello haha today went out wif peixian...shoppin haha took a few pics cos i realise dat we 2 like nv take pic bfore tgt since sec sch? haha Bought few things today again...aiyo this 2 days spend quite alot to me sia...ystd went out to meet wif ber and justi after wrk...haha had alot of fun meetin frends..laughed alot haha everytime go justi hse dun feel like leavin at all haha juz feel like stayin there! hahaha

peixian and me haha

hongsiew :)

2009-02-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

Hello...the pic u all gonna see below might b abit er for some of u haha but this was wat happened durin much time today haha below is a piece of 'art' by libing haah she is my collegue cum frend at wrkplace..she is a super interestin and funny girl haha

hongsiew :)

2009-02-15T14:35:00.003+08:00

Ystd was v day...went photog gatherin den went to the ntu seminar...got a choc and a balloon elmo for present! Haha was totally amused by the person making the elmo balloon! He super zai lah cann!!Peifu peifu....at first when he was makin we still cant figure out which part looks like elmo...hahaha but when he finished makin..it was like woah! haha super cute lah..but the lips like sausage lips hahhaaha anw thks for this present :) i had a different exp this yr :)

hongsiew :)

2009-02-08T13:22:00.002+08:00

Hi...first..let me say happy stuff haha ystd went out wif maygee! She keep naggin me to eat more...keep sayin :'' aiyooo can u eat more!! bcome more and more skinny!! Alrdy sooo skinny liao! tolong u eat more can! i am goin to feed u wif food today! " but guess wat..in the end she like eat more than me! haha but i am happy dat my frends show such concern for me haha anw we ate some jap food at cathay..super nice sia!! but i forgot the name haha den we ate some hongkong dessert at far east! super super nice also!! Think ystd was the day dat i ate the most food ever since i wrk this job

maygee and me haha

this is super nice!

OK...now..is the unhappy stuff..ystd nite seriously got bad gastric...pain until i cant stand straight...super xin ku cann...first time got such bad gastric....shld b the side effect of this job haha...ohmann

hongsiew :)

2009-02-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

Haiz... today got real bad headache...whole day feel like throwin up...really headache until i feel like bangin my head against the wall sia...think bcos i look at com too long and keep tryin to focus on the screen...really felt terrible...i also dunno y i feel like throwin up..mayb bcos i drink coffee in the mornin...but until now i still got the ''wan to throw up'' feeling...really feel v unwell...think my body really spoil liao...seriously juz now when i sat there infront of the com typin durin wrk i nearly cried out bcos i felt terrible..my head hurts and i feel like throwin up...lunch time seems super sian to me bcos when i look at the food i even more wan to throw up...but i am hungry...this feelin really sucks...haiz i also dunno wat to do..

Anw i am juz glad i am able to make frends who r fun and nice at the wrkplace...they make me laugh...make me felt better...if nt this job will really make me feel terrible and miserable....i am really glad..think i am really lucky...

Anw juz post this photo is taken wif my cousin durin CNY...

hongsiew :)

2009-02-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

Yo! haha this whole wkend i spent it super happily!! Sat went justi hse stay over..nice spendin time tgt..i juz love dat haha anw we played poker and stuff...actually we did nothin much there haha juz played viwawa there...went chomp chomp eat tgt..haha love it..really v nice to eat wif frends like dat...anw ber gonna b busy..hmm might b quite difficult to meet up le...but nvm haha we will still try to meet up!

At justi hse slp like 330am to 8plus am..abt 5hrs of slp? den chiong hm to change clothes bathe and stuff den chiong out to meet the jc gang..haha it was really nice to see everyone able to meet up..cos its like 7 of us in this clique...dats y i kinda cherish the time we spend tgt...we went to each other hse to bainian..haha tok and played and lame tgt hahaha after dat we went to kbox..wah so long nv go liao...really had great fun there wif them! sing until abit sorethroat...and eat too many pineapple tarts sia..scared sorethroat really haha..but nvm..i really had great fun and nice time wif my frends over this wkend! i love them hahaha

After all these fun is another wk of wrk again..mann..haiz nvm..time will pass by v quickly de! haha

Pics will b uploaded soon! Most prob my ''soon'' is next wkend..hahahha paiseh lah..wkdays really wun hv time and energy to come online and stuff...''coming soon''!

hongsiew :)

2009-01-31T20:54:00.002+08:00

hahahahahahaha long time no blog! hmm hv been wrking so nv blog lah paiseh haha so sry to the fans of my blog! thks for ur support lahh next time gif u all my autograph signature ok?! hahaha

wah anw my company super stingy sia...new yr gif nothin de lor!! how nice..slog like shit for them but get nothin...sian...hahhaha

just came back frm chomp chomp haha today stayin over at justi hse wif ber..nt bad nt bad ate alot of pineapple tarts haha super nice sia...tml goin bainian again haha den is start wrk liao haiz..but nvm haha

hongsiew :)

2009-01-24T12:59:00.003+08:00

Yo everyone! long time no see! omg one whole wk of wrk..so no life...930 to 730 is my usual office hr...but since my first day there..i hv been doin ot until 8plus everyday! alamak..my wrk is to stare at com screen for 10 hrs or so and type non stop..and still muz b super fast..stupid leh..type until my fingers wan to break..my eyes wan to pop out liao..my office super strict sia...but the ppl there is ok lah....and ystd after wrk went out wif bernice and justi! really had a great time although we all v tired haha

i kinda feel abit lost touch wif my frends bcos of this wrk..cos everytime i end wrk alrdy v late liao..so also v difficult to meet them..only left wkends..a v short free 2 days..haiz..so my dear frends! book me for the wkends! cos i also v itchy and dying to go out!! Fri also can lah haha u all can msg me too..but i might nt b able to reply u all v fast cos my wrk place strictly cant use handphone during wrk..also no time to use lah..and thks to those of my frends who asked me abt my wrk haha thks for concern! i love u all long long~~

haha early wish u all happy new yr!! hong bao take many many lah haha

oh and cotton on opened at hougang mall liao!!!! gd for the girls mann haha

hongsiew :)

2009-01-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hahahhahaha YO everyone! I luckily got the data entry job!! Its at toapayoh haha and juz opp sihan's hse! haha hopefully i can survive this job mannn later the boss think i too slow or make too many mistakes den sack me after 1 or 2 days! haha oh mann haiz nvm...i shall juz try my best den hahaha and hor the company v strict lor..cant use handphone sia..wan to use muz ask permission frm manager de lor..wasehh

Today suppose to buy wrkin office clothes wif justi but end up spend lots of money buyin clothes hahaha which are nt really wrkin clothes for office but still can wear to office bah haha after dat we met ber at amk hub for dinner..really nice to meet them up sia haha had great time

Hope the ppl there r nice and hope i can survive the job...if i ganna sacked den too bad lor..i shall go sell shoe! haha everyone wish me gd luck!

hongsiew :)

2009-01-15T15:22:00.004+08:00

Hahahha juz to say...i love the M.A.D dat person hahah she super nice! Make me wan to wrk for u..make me feel bad and guilty for bluffin....

Oh juz now went dwn for interview for data entry..wah she give me do one data entry test..super headache cannn! Now i pei fu those data entry de...wah see the whole long string of numbers and letters!!! wahhhhhh my eye pain sia...go blur lorr wahseh...i passed one test and failed the other..think both got some mistakes..haiz..dunno how lah..see the company still wan me anot lor..dun wan i go M.A.D do liao hahaha if nt i really do the data entry i also MAD lahh

Anw another random thing...Old Chang Kee CHICKEN WING is super nice!! hahahahaha

hongsiew :)

2009-01-15T09:38:00.002+08:00

Haiz i got none job offer when i'm findin...now got so many when i kinda found one..but the thing is i dunno shld i go do sales or admin..haizz i'm tryin out the sales today..but the admin one i nid to go dwn for interview first..so if i today tell the sales de i dun wan to do..but den later after the interview i cant get the admin job i nt v siannn..wahhseh..super idiot leh...but my bro insist dat i shld go do admin..haiz..so most prob i might reject the shoe one...but it depends leh..if the ppl wrkin there is fine and the job is fine den i may consider stayin...wahhh headache arhhhh buaytahan

Ystd tok to maygee over phone..v long nv tok to her le..haha felt great catchin up wif her...

hongsiew :/

2009-01-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

Nothin much to say..life gettin harder bcos of recession...my family members r startin to quarrel wif each other..pissed off wif each other..i really got nothin to say..money really is a factor...this is how reality wrks here i guess...

Haiz...anw tml is ny open hse..goin back to take a look...

hongsiew :(

2009-01-07T10:35:00.002+08:00

Smthing dat i learnt recently..ppl do change overtime....ok dats random...

Yet another day jobless...all the consultant at taka recruit express does was to call and check whether i am still lookin for job..today called again also to check and to ask whether i am justina's frend and tell me actually she no job offer at the moment and call again awhile later to ask whether i noe excel le mah..how nice~~ mayb she too bored liao sia...call and make fun of me...

Smhow my frends all seem busy...busy wrking..busy lookin for job..busy goin out wif their frends...and here i am busy rotting at hm...

ok..nvm..after dat consultant once again sounded like i am so useless nt knowing how to use excel..i shall start learnin excel on my own...

I also tried sendin resume online...many many..but no responds at all...mayb i sent wrong...sent to some africa country sia...or mayb my resume nt attractive enuf...hmm mayb i shld remove my pic and put some pretty girl pic inside haha ok..dats quite lame..mayb my brain rusty liao..too long nv wrk liao..everyday rot only...

hongsiew :(

2009-01-06T10:49:00.002+08:00

My com is abit spoil..so anything sms me or call me...and this was the reason y i hven been online these few days...super sian leh..no job yet..and with this com i cant send resume..sucks..i am so stuck mann...

hongsiew :(

2008-12-31T21:41:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone!

Let us countdown to ADULT FARE while ppl countdwn to new yr! Yea mann!!

Alrite this is sooo happy mann until my tears fall sia!

Anw hope 2009 will b better...

hongsiew :)

2008-12-30T11:01:00.004+08:00

Got some more pics of clss bbq frm sha..thks sha...

Ystd watched ''yes man'' wif bernice...considered late nite movie bah..started at 9plus and ended at 11plus...sat at seat waiting for movie to start but ganna stepped by some guys tryin to move in..say sry still stepped on my feet 2 times and kicked my leg 1 time..bernice also ganna stepped 3 or 4 times...stupid leh...anw the movie was quite funny though..but no subs so some parts didnt catch wat they say...

Somehow i think dat frends hving bf would pull a clique or pull frends apart in some way or other...nt sayin this in a bad way but juz wat i feel...now i believe dat there is no such thing as frends bfore bf...(btw nt attackin anyone here) i can only try my best to understand how ppl who hv bf feels..how girls naturally wans to b wif their bf...but cant help being disappointed as a frend...therefore it naturally pulls frends who hv no bf tgt...bcos somehow they feel wat each other feel and they see wat each other see and they will keep telling each other to try to understand their frends who hv bf...but i always say 'yea i understand' but the truth sometimes is dat it is tiring for a person to keep tryin to understand ppl...seriously smtimes i cant help but wonder how long our clique can stay close tgt...

All these may seem like i'm accusing frends who hv bf and some may think i'm sayin these juz bcos i dun hv one...but this is wat i observed..which seem to appear as the truth to me...

hongsiew :/

2008-12-27T22:01:00.004+08:00

Pics frm clss bbq

hongsiew :)

2008-12-27T21:32:00.003+08:00

Took abit long for the photos for the picnics..paiseh..First time picnic..really nt bad..to me..i think its quite difficult to find frends who would agree to go picnic...great experience..hope to hv another again...

my fav!!

our menu for dat day

Btw ystd had clss bbq at pasir ris...dun really hv much to say...only dat i felt great seeing my clssmates again...really happy to see everyone..but frankly did nt return hm wif a really happy mood...juz nothin to comment on...

hongsiew :)

2008-12-24T19:36:00.002+08:00

Xmas eve today...nothin to do...somehow feel v lonely..xmas tml..nothin to do...somehow feel v lonely again...today last day of wrk...feel quite sian and insecure abt finding wrk again...

Somehow these days dunno wat to blog abt...

Btw the bbq and picnic photos i will upload asap..so sry to justi and bernice..oh and bernice owe me 1 bubble tea! haha

Ystd went late nite shoppin wif cheryl..haha really felt great to b able to catch up wif her..seriously she is the most funniest person lor..almost every sentence can make me laugh like shit de but she super duper throw face lahh haha anw we went vivo...at last didnt eat there..instead went back to hougang to eat...which is alrdy 11 plus 12 plus le..next day still wrk morning jiang haha but had fun lah...

Had been missing ikea's meatball since the last time went to eat wif bernice and justi during chalet..ok..i noe this is random...

Merry x'mas & Happy new yr! :D Hope next yr will b bettter...

hongsiew :)

2008-12-20T19:37:00.002+08:00

These few days seem to pass fast...and i dunno y cant really rmb things dat happened these few days...x'mas approaching..taka is real crowded...ganna stepped, kicked, pushed,hit by customers tryin to push their way thru...

Smtimes i hate the so called fate...even if i'm at taka wrking i can still amazingly meet u there...smtimes i really think this kind of fate sucks...u seem to b living ur life well..actually wat am i toking abt mann..obviously u will b living ur life well...this sucks...at first i still cant believe i saw u there...but at least after seeing u..i noe dat i'm nt as weak as bfore...but i'm still weak...now i noe i shldnt hold on to the hope of still being frends wif u...i'm stupid enuf to believe ur words...

Anw sry and thks to my frends who wanted to visit me but whenever these frends wan to visit me..i'm nt wrking on dat day haha paiseh lah...sihan went 2 times but both times i'm nt wrking haha sry and thks for ur effort anw :) left 2 days of wrk there le...left tue and wed haha guess u all might nt hv chance to visit me le...

Oh and today went walk walk wif wanling haha she super lazy haha tml picnic and bbq! first time picnic haha cool~

hongsiew :)

2008-12-18T10:53:00.003+08:00

Pebbles chalet...dun really noe wat to say...throughout the chalet came to noe some things..came to experience some things..observed some things...many thots came up..but apart frm all these there r still fun parts though...only came to realise dat we actually had pebbles chalet every yr since sec 4...this is the 3rd pebbles chalet without fail..but unfortunately nt the most fun and memorable chalet among the 3 chalets...things changed...but nvm...i guess its inevitable dat things and ppl change over time...it may b bad..it may also b gd...

took at pasir ris beach wif dslr haha nice

Ppl try to keep in touch wif each other bcos they cherish this frendship rite? But when they dun...wat does dat mean? or shld we tell ourselves dat they r juz too busy and forgive them? But smtimes u can still feel dat they do cherish the frendship...

Anw x'mas approaching....clss bbq approaching..nt much thot though...many ppl headache abt x'mas presents huh haha

hongsiew :

2008-12-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

Quite long nv blog liao..firstly juz gonna blog abt my eldest bro ROM...this pic super nice haha bro damn yan dao(handsome) sis in law super pretty haha

hongsiew:)

2008-12-10T10:29:00.002+08:00

4 out of 5 of my family members all fell sick..dat is including me..excluding my 2nd bro..seeing my parents so sick..yet i cant really do much..its kinda helpless..

This is the first time i experience this..first time i feel so tired..tired of everything dat i hv no more energy and mood to care for my frends or to share their troubles or to b happy for my frends...happy dat they found happiness bcos it enhances and reminds me of my lonliness and troubles...so sry to my frends..but i'm nt saying u all shld stop sharing wif me ur happiness...

Too tired and emo dat i fell sick...i feel like finding frends to tok to but on the other hand i also dun wan to always trouble them..bcos the main thing troubling me so much is always the same thing..and i noe this prob can only b solved by time or myself...and i noe i'm too weak to solve this bcos juz by accidentally seeing a pic..my efforts to solve this prob went to waste..everything came back...and i will hv to try to fight everythin again...but now i will leave this to time bcos i'm too weak and tired...

I'm recovering..so everyone dun worry...

hongsiew :)

2008-12-08T00:27:00.002+08:00

I feel really v tired...v drained..both physically and mentally..i think mostly mentally...sucks...

Totally no mood to wrk..really no energy to wrk and no mood..i nid to really rest..really cant cont wif this kind of state...

Anw..today went photog gathering...although before dat was alrdy feelin quite sick but i seriously dun wish to miss it so...anw it was still really v nice to meet up wif the photogs...played pool..tok tgt..laughed tgt..really hope we hv another one soon...

Btw..today saw mr kwek at taka while wrkin...juz random lah...

Think i'm gettin sick soon..so i'm nt really in gd mood...cos i'm tired...but meetin up wif frends really can make me feel better and happier...but i also nid to rest...but i also hope to meet up wif my frends..contradict...

hongsiew :(

2008-12-03T15:09:00.002+08:00

On mon went to dora's hse for dongbang day haha it was nice to meet up wif them...to me quite a rare chance to meet them...if nt hv to wait till clss chalet or bbq...had fun there haha ate pizza and lots of dbsk..totally loaded haha

startin wif dora's unglam pic haha

dora and amanda

sha

our pizza..nt bad nt bad

dora, me, amanda

Cant wait for pebbles chalet haha oh and there is photog gathering on sun! yay got food and pool haha

Next time i shall find a job which is ever busy for me..and nt lots of time for me to stone...bcos the more i stone the more i think...the more i cant get out of it...

Anw i managed to finally made one frend at wrkplace so its nt dat bad...but she is always busy wif customers so also cant really tok..but at least its better than nothin...

hongsiew :)

2008-11-30T20:07:00.002+08:00

Today wrk mornin shift.. 11am to 4pm..today was actually nt dat bad cos its sun and there r crowd so i was a little more busy...hmm honestly today was nt dat bad..but mayb its bcos today was a sun...i hope any other day is like this..den things r nt so bad then...

Anw my wish really came thru leh..today also got frend come visit me at wrk!! today anqi and her bf came to visit me haha thkful for dat haha rare to see her since she always busy wif projs haha oh and i was quite touched cos wanling's frend also came to visit me..cos she went taka to settle some things...although we met only once but she took the effort to come visit me! i'm so touched lah haha thks thks she is gonna wrk there soon too haha gdgd and mayb wanling too haha seems dat my life there may b gettin better..or i hope so haha wah i sooo happy! really everytime i wrk gt frends come visit me leh thks alot! haha

After wrk went to serangoon to find bernice awhile and eat n&b beancurd! although standard abit drop leh hahaha..tue wrk nite shift sianzzz to the max..hate nite shift..lucky i dun hv much nite shift wahahaha oh anw tml is dongbang day! yay! no wrk! hahaha

hongsiew :)

2008-11-29T18:20:00.003+08:00

Haiz i feel like quittin..ahhh..loner and no sales and at town..wat a nice job...

Ystd wanling came to visit me at my wrkplace..dats nice..made my wrk time pass abit faster..make my wrk life there abit less miserable...anw thks...ystd after wrk went to meet bernice and anqi at hougang mall..rare for three of us to meet up cos anqi always v busy..but i'm v happy to meet them haha

Haiz dun feel like goin wrk at all..now i noe how miserable it is to b a loner...although its juz abt 6 hrs of loner...goin taka alone..stand there stone alone...go hm frm taka alone...i hate goin hm alone..esp nite shift..esp when its at orchard..esp when its wkend...one word, sucks...now my stonin skills is really at the ultimate max lvl liao..the pdt is juz so ex dat there r no customers for me to pass time..now its more like i go all the way to taka to stone..or to practice stonin skills..but i cant switch jobs cos i've got several events in dec which admin wun allow me to take offs..so dat means i hv to stick to this job or b jobless for a mth...seeing all the other promoters able to tok to their frends made me all the more sianzz and loner...damn..

Anw today played bball haha nice..but played awhile tired liao...old liao...after dat went j8 to walk walk...anw hope we get to play again soon...great to b able to meet up frends...

I hope everytime when i got wrk got frends come visit me den can go hm wif me! hahaha since for the past 2 days all got frends come visit me mahh haiz but dats quite impossible though...at this pt of time i kinda envy those ppl who gt bf..cos everytime outside taka got many bf waiting for their gf..haiz..if there is someone waitin for me after wrk den my life there would b so much less miserable..cos at least got smthin to look forward to mah..but think only lah haha

hongsiew :(

2008-11-28T09:36:00.002+08:00

Ystd first day at wrk..guess this time nt so lucky..there the other promoters all seem to hv their own clique alrdy...this means i will b loner there..this is sooo sianzz cann..time pass damn slow...go hm frm taka orchard all alone..haiz everyone pls come visit meeee..make my life there less miserable...ok? haha

And ystd a suprise visit by tsuhui and yv at the wrkplace taka! i was really happy and shock to c them come all the way here esp tsuhui haha i was really happy! thks :)

Oh and ystd damn throw face..i wore dat kind of covered shoes to wrk..but dat shoe alrdy like 1 yr plus nv wear le..so the whole soles freakin came out lahhh lucky i was still at my blk dwnstairs only..wahhh faster chiong up change to slippers go buy new shoes..but no time so anyhow choose..and in the end the new shoe was dat kind freakin hard de material so my legs suffered a great lot wif blisters and all!! ahhhh i hate covered shoes!! Dunno y women muz wear this kind of shoes....

Later gonna wrk nite shift 4-9.30 again..siannzzz will b all alone..hate this..i hate the feeling of being all alone in orchard...nvm..tml no nid wrk! haha

hongsiew :)

2008-11-27T11:38:00.002+08:00

2 days ago juz saw the letter sayin dat i'm eligible to apply for the edusave merit bursary..i was quite happy though..but actually i knew my father would b like say dun wan to apply..cos at end of sec 4..the same thing happened too..and i was damn sad at dat time. I juz felt dat its kinda nt being recognised for my hardwrk in gettin gd results...frm all these hardwrk..all i get frm my father was:''dun wan apply lah..apply for wat?!''..like wth can...last time i sadly walked away...this time i threw the letter onto the table rite infront of him...nobody in my family gif a damn for this..it juz make me felt dat my efforts r so nt being recognised...wat a family...sucks..

Nt dat its only by applying for this then shows their recognition..but i cant help but feel sad and angry dat they hv this kind of reaction...i dun understand y my family acts like this and neither do they understand me...mayb this is y i always find my frends to tok instead of tokin to my family cos its like tokin to the wall and this is juz so nt wat our family would do...

Ah nvm..anw goin wrk later liao..abit sianzz...hope the ppl there r nice ppl so dat my life is easier...

Mayb i hv been cheating myself all this while since dat thing...i thot i'm forgettin but it actually hv been influencing my mood since then..guess a feeling of 1&half yrs cant b forgotten so easily...one moment i thot i forgot alrdy..but next moment smthin reminds me of _...seeing my frends being so happy wif the persons they like makes me feel all the more lonely and sad...but on the other side i'm also truly happy for them dat they can find their happiness...i fear sinkin into such a miserable trap again in the future...ah nvm..i also dunno wat i'm sayin exactly...

hongsiew :(

2008-11-25T10:09:00.002+08:00

Yo..recently juz got the photos taken at steamboat frm bernice..so post them now...

attempted to take pic using timer but eventually failed haha

at the steamboat place..all 4 pebbles

3 pebbles and aq's bf

Ystd met up wif cheryl and meifang to hv dinner..originally planned to eat at chomp chomp..but when we got there...it was closed! urgh...den nvm..we went to thai express to eat instead...the food there was nice haha first time eatin there..nt bad nt bad...

meifang's order

cheryl's order

this is mine!

meifang! haha

I was really happy to b able to meet up wif them even juz for a short dinner..really happy...after dat i and cheryl met dom and jerico to play pool until like 1 plus am haha nt bad nt bad...but i still love bball the best lah haha..when i finally fell aslp it was alrdy 3 plus am..

Den i was thinkin..when it is so much easier to meet meifang..dom these ppl who r nt in my clss and knew each other better only when abt recently..y meetin wif clssmates would b so much of difficulty? Even when we call them out only like instantly or last min..they will still come out to meet us...

I guess its really juz the interest ppl hv in a particular thing..if a person dun hv any interest in a thing..he or she will nt make the slightest effort to do anything or to meet up...so forcing them would b useless...haiz nvm..anw gonna start wrk at taka on thurs liao..abit sian lah..go until town..sianzzz..anyone welcomed to visit me! but we r rotating shifts so anyone plan on visitin me might wan to sms me first in case i'm nt there doin the shift at dat time...and i shall look forward to chalets den...

hongsiew :)

2008-11-22T21:30:00.003+08:00

Today i realised how hard it is to get our clss tgt for juz a lunch outing...despite the effort put in to get everyone's availability days..which days free or nt free...this is nt easy..and we made sure dat this day everyone is free..BUT it turns out dat we thot of things too easily..in the end most ppl still cant go..and we had to cancel it...but to me actually most of the time is whether u wan or dun wan..nt u can or cannot...the efforts juz gone dwn the drain...this is juz so nt the way to b treated back...although more of the efforts is nt made by me...

We had thot our clss was closer..so dat such outing was more possible..guess we placed our hopes too high...but we decided to go ahead and continue plannin our clss chalet although i think this is juz so nt rewardin...in the end will ppl turn up for the chalet? i seriously dunno...nt much of hope i hv in seeing the situation now...i dunno y is it so difficult to meet these jc frends of mine...

hongsiew :(

2008-11-22T10:17:00.002+08:00

U noe..come to think of it..i hven gone out or meet up wif any of my jc frends since my As ended...been only meetin up wif the pebbles..so wat does this says?..i'm nt v sure also..guess they r juz too busy meetin up their frends..or guess its juz both parties didnt made any effort to meet up...haiz i wan to play bball...sianzzz

2008-11-18T09:20:00.002+08:00

everything ended..really ended once and for all...i gathered all my courage to end this thing..and it went juz as i expected..although i didnt do it directly face to face but i didnt hv the chance and i didnt wan to choose dat way also...

my tap ran totally lose for this for the last time..i will make sure dats the last time...i tore and deleted and threw away anythin dat has connection wif this..except one thing dat i still could nt bring myself to tear it...

now wat is left is really frendship..no hope no nothing...i alrdy knew it was impossible between us...we were after all juz meant to b frends...this has always wat it has been frm the start to now...i forced myself to see this by doin this..now dat i noe truly..but i'm glad to hear frm u dat our frendship stays strong...

and some ppl who read this..dun think i'm in a relationship and i broke up..its totally nt dat way although it kinda sounds like..yea..anw its ok..i will walk out of this soon and really live my own life and my world will juz revolve ard my world..nt yours anymore..

hongsiew :)

2008-11-17T11:47:00.002+08:00

It really hurts when u noe how worthless u r to someone..yet all along i allowed this to b of so much worth to me...but actually unfortunately i shld hv known dat this is all along how it has been..i allowed myself to neglect this..i allowed myself to ignore this..i allowed myself to place hopes in this..i allowed myself to get into this mess..i allowed myself to b hurt so badly..i allowed all this to happen..so i cant blame anyone...

i hate myself to b so weak to let my tap run all loose over this thing..i cant control..terrible state now..i hate this..i hope i'm nt so weak...y did i let this make my life so miserable...its so hard to let go...i always thot i'm prepared to do it..but now i noe dat i'm barely able to stand all this even bfore anythin has been done...i fear everythin turns into hatred..i dun wan...i noe this is nt rite..

hongsiew :(

2008-11-15T20:08:00.002+08:00

Juz came back frm playin bball...bfore dat and actually now i'm still quite pissed..or actually v pissed..its nt abt anythin dat happened during the bball but bfore dat...

I juz wan to say..i'm pissed at those who pangseh me for the bball...4 of u pangseh me..u all shld noe who u r...i took effort to organise this bball session...spent time to sms u all..coordinating and all..although it did nt really meant lots of effort and stuff...but in the end i juz got replies and last min reply dat: ''sry i forgot...'' and '' sry i'm goin out..'' and ''sry'' and more ''sry''...but SRY..to me..a ''sry'' is juz so irresponsible...a ''sry'' isnt gd enuf to juz throw away other ppl's effort...its really wasting my time and sms..this is it mann really..i've had enuf...i'm nt goin to organise stuff again..nt at least for these ppl..i may b harsh in this way..but its really enuf lor...frm now on..even if i organise things like bball session i will only make effort to ask those who r really on and doesnt really hv this kind of prob...my sms is nt sooo many of free sms ok...

I'm glad dat there r ppl who turned up today..bball was fun wif them..haha we shall play again soon...and these ppl who pangseh me dun nid to say sry to me even when u all read this post..its useless...and u all shld noe my temper..the thing i hate most is ppl pangseh me...nt dat sayin i'm perfect or wat..like i dun even pangseh ppl..but i dun do this dat often...and dun nid to b scared of me knowin i'm pissed at u..cos my temper will juz go away soon...

hongsiew :)

2008-11-15T11:03:00.005+08:00

On thurs..after the last paper went to meet bernice at kovan..ate at hong kong cafe..and coincidentally yv and her frend also went there haha its cool dat they serve their western food in a v chinese type of plate haha and their drinks..so traditional haha

Ystd went to bernice's sch..singapore poly..actually wanted to cele her bday so suprised her wif justi turning up and anqi and qh too...originally bluff her only i can visit her sch haha below r pics took in sp canteen..cos wait for bernice finish lesson v bored...and i bought an elmo keychian!! the amazing thing is dat when u press it got sound!!! so cute! haha

After dat we went amk hub near jubilee there to eat steamboat..each person $14..consider quite cheap liao haha nice nice shld go there again!
bernice and her unglam ice cream

took this at mrt station to kill time..

After steamboat..anqi and me went to justi's hse to stay over..bought the 'things' shown in the pic below..haha and dun nag at me or wat hor... anw..didnt slp dat much there..was alrdy happy dat i could fall aslp..we slpt at 3 plus..dunno y nowadays i cant fall aslp..now slpin is a torture and i actually scared slpin now..phobia sia..so i decided to live my everyday v busy..so i will b tired at nite to slp..go exercise alot!

flowers anqi bought..each for us...

nice pic taken by me huh haha the pic look like the flowers r put in the bottle haha

my bed for the nite...

pebbles..taken frm previous outin...

借酒消愁..understand?...i thot i'm alrdy prepared for..but i didnt expect and neglect the fact dat i might nt even reach wat i'm prepared for..i might juz fall on the way..fall heavily...but i still insist on reachin wat i'm prepared for..but i alrdy cant stand the fall..am i really able to take wat i'm prepared for? or am i actually even really prepared for it? i dunno..shld i still go ahead?...wat a mess huh... damn...nvm..but hangin out wif frends can really make u feel better although it wun really get rid of the mood and trouble cos this depends on urself...but nonetheless thks pebbles for ystd..really love hangin out wif u all.. :) and esp anqi take care too..

hongsiew :)

2008-11-14T08:41:00.006+08:00

YO!!!!! I DECLARE I'M FINISHED FIGHTING THE WAR WIF A's!!!!!!!!!! OMGGGG

But actually didnt quite got this feeling after ystd hist paper lehh...when i finally finished my As ystd..the feeling i got is juz like wat cheryl said..abit empty..abit lost...wun actually b dat happy and excited...abit no feeling..hahaha its really quite a funny feeling to actually noe dat u wun hv to study when u wake up..u wun hv to study tml..the day after tml and more tmls..really feels empty..aimless..lost and weird...

I was tryin to gain the feeling and memories of wearing uniform for the last time in my life ystd..the last time i go in ny being a student..the last time i walk dat long path to sch as a jc student...i totally feel sad abt leaving ny..i like the days in which i could go sch and see my frends in sch..my lovely clssmates and hv fun wif them...perhaps bcos i enjoyed sch so much dat 2 yrs past by without me knowing...feel sad...although i dun think my results will b gd...anw...lets nt tok abt this...

Last nite lied on the bed for more than 3 hrs..cant fall aslp..whenever i close my eyes..many things juz kept floatin into my mind..this has been happenin for days and wk..so xin ku...lied there soo long..wan to slp but cant slp..dun actually exactly noe the reason...been thinkin alot these days...

Haizzz...anw gonna play bball on sat!! this is only the first session of my endless sessions!! My long waited bball....hmm.....i'm cominggg haha

I miss jc life..i wun get to see scenes like these..wearing ny uniform..in ny..hving fun and spending time tgt....scenes of much memories...

i wun get to see scenes like this

like this..

all the more nt like this scene...

allll the more nt this kind of scene..

nt this....

nt this too...

nt this either...

absolutely wun get to c this kind of scene either...the many fun of photog

nt this kind of fun scene in canteen....

the canteen i spent eatin for 2 yrs..i will certainly miss the stall aunties who love me too

And lastly...i wun ever get to see clss photos in ny uniform like this...

And most of all absolutely i will nv get to see such beautiful scenes of us, 0732 in ny...
i love this pic...nice...

Haha..guess i juz dedicated a post to 0732 and ny..mann soo many memories...i'm lucky to b able to meet soo many nice and fun ppl in ny...wat brought us tgt? we juz got grp up in 0732 without knowing..a grp of strangers..yet we r able to get along well and hv fun...guess its amazing huh...nt forgettin jhao sihan haoyi and clement...come to think of this..juz amazing..so called ''meant to b''? haha abit to kua zhang..alrite...

Guess my post is abit too sad and emo for a person who juz finished As...hahahaha oh guess i will miss asnira calling me 'siew mai' in sch hahaha

hongsiew :)

2008-11-11T18:12:00.002+08:00

I can only say today's econs paper is totally difficult to the core cannnn alamak..how come this yr the papers all siao one arh..i can only say cambridge totally think toooo highly of me liao haizzzz...

ahh nvmmm anw its 2 more freakin days to my freedom! muhahhaha

Lastly juz felt like puttin our clss photo! took frm cheryl's blog haha

hongsiew :)

2008-11-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

Yo! wahahaha again i'm off to last 3 days of war liaooo and after dat i'm finished fightin this war! omg i will b totally free on thurs!! alrite! although actually even now i dun quite hv the study mood liao haha

anw thks to everyone who supported me and jiayou for me..thks alot! lets jiayou for the last few papers and everythin will b over real soonnn and the rest of the ppl dun jealous of my early freedom cos ur freedom day will come real soon too!

muhahahhaha.....

hongsiew :)

2008-11-08T17:40:00.005+08:00

Yo! i changed my layout! haha although i actually hv no intention of doin it but was forced to bcos my blog image gana deleted haizz but nvm..now i returned wif clouds! hahaha nice nice nice

Anw can b seen as a new start and new set of feelings and mood...although As is nt over yet haha

hahahha only 5 days away frm my freedom day!!!! yay!!

But these few days really dun hv the exam mood and study mood..this is bad haiz..i'm nt concentratin alamak...left wif econs on tue and wed den hist on thurs DEN ITS THE END!!! haha i've actually told my mum i hv ultimately no confidence in my results..and juz say see wat i can do abt it next yr bah haha she nt much reaction lah haha juz agreeing wif me..a v understandin mum yea haha

Oh and chalet kept floatin into my mind haha but i hv none planned yet...hmm..OHHH and bball kept bouncin into my mind too!!! my hands v ichy liao lorr reallyyy haha cant wait to play bball wif everyone!!

More ppl r fallin sick too..and i hven quite fully recover frm mine too..still got cough..so everyone take care ya...drink more water..and i'm goin to say..''an apple a day keeps the doc away!!" haha

hongsiew :)

2008-11-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

Today math paper..the ultimate demoralizing paper...the first paper in my life dat made me feel so sad and demoralized...in the past this kind of thing has nv happened to me..cos i hv always been happy go lucky...nv see myself affected by any exam or tests even if i dunno how to do the paper...today is really the first time in my life...

I dunno y..but mayb bcos i feel dat i practiced sooo much yet juz now still all dunno how to do..really v angry at myself lorr stupid lehhhhhh and my math in my clss has always been among the lowest..so i promised myself to wrk hard for math..guess i was juz disappointed wif myself bah..

Suddenly i also got the feelin dat i seriously screwed my As so far..i only left wif half of my hist paper and my econs paper next wk..so helpless..wan save myself also too late liao...this kind of stupid result can get me no where...i screwed my own life mann..haiz..

nvm..think of all these also no use..they r over le...so i can only try to wrk on the rest of my papers...see wat i can do..ahhhhhhh

hongsiew :(

2008-11-03T15:51:00.002+08:00

Urgh my body is really failin..

And hor v throw face lehh..cos now got sorethroat and cough mah so got flam...soo when i tok the voice is v horrible..AND...when i go my dwnstairs kopitiam buy fishball noodle juz now..when i was sayin ''fishball'' (in chinese)..i saw the ''am chio'' face on the person..like wan laugh but cant laugh and nearly laugh dat kind of face..ahhh my voice got soooo funny mehhh..cant help it also wat...humphhhhhh

And i screwed today GP..dunno how to ans the qns of the compre..haiz..sian..GP determines everything mann..but also nothin i can do le hahhaa everything will b over soonnnn! yep yep hope i really get well soon..hope i can concentrate in tml's math paper!

hongsiew :)

2008-11-02T19:00:00.003+08:00

Haiz my stupid body is failin on me seriously mann..today visited the toilet like dunno how many times..vomit + diarrhoea + sorethroat + cough + nearly touched fever..omg wat a timing to hv all these mann.guess its a challenge to me huhh haha

But i'm feelin much better now..hope by tml will get well and all..i wouldnt wan to screw my GP tml and math paper on tue..hope i will b able to concentrate durin the papers cos i really nid to...

And i dunno y my blog image gana deleted..juz ignore it for the time being bah..too lazy to change and no time also..

jiayou! jiayou!

hongsiew :(

2008-11-01T16:53:00.002+08:00

Damn..my temperature is approachin fever temp..nt gettin any better...now 37.5...desperately tryin to get it to go dwn...

Hate this absolutely..i dun wan to get sick durin this point of time..critical point of time lehhhh..here is As and i'm dwn sick...hate this...

Ahhh i shall go do math now..stupid...cant b more suay than this mannn

i kept tellin everyone dun fall sick but in the end lehh i'm the lucky one instead!!

Seriously hope i get well soonnnnnnnnnn reallyyy soonn if nt here goes my As mann

hongsiew :(

2008-10-31T21:02:00.002+08:00

Yo everyone! i'm takin a break frm the horrible incorrigible As...juz this 2 days is enuf to kill me..

Let me grumble and vent my anger!

I slept for 4 hrs only ystd..although there r many others who slp less than me..but try doin a chinese paper 1 on the same day and end at 5pm..chiong hm to mug hist like shit till 2am and go slp but cant fall aslp cos things like ''burma'' ''national unity'' ''JO'' ''muhammadiya'' vajiravudh'' will juz come out floatin in ur mind...crap lah..i shld go burn all these sea hist stuffs!!!!! Den wake up at 6am walk like corpse to sch...and got stupid sorethroat!!! makin my head pain like dunno wat and my body ache like dunno wat and my mind block like dunno wat!! ahhh

And...in the afternoon after hist got chinese paper 2!! super duper heavy content cannnnn like omg lahhh can say today abit screwed lah..but nvm..its all over! i survived the most diff days in my life ever after!! wah really feel like givin up in the process lor..so xing ku cann..when doin the paper feel like juz throwin the pen away!!

And durin chinese paper..i finally noe how gastric feels like..tgt wif sorethroat..walao..i lucky shit mannnn...think i nv do enuf gd deed..let me tio such sucky timetable for As and sick at this pt of time...lucky me..think also may b bcos i suan ppl too much..but cant help it mahhhh hehhehe

ok i survived the hardest time of this war and i shall cont to fight the war till the end! although i now gana shot by 2 bullets but my skin still thick enuf to bullet proof this 2 bullets!! wahhahahaha

oh and today saw clement in sch! he came back ny to teach flute to the j1s band ppl..quite happy to see him actually haha wif no particular reason...

alrite...my freedom day is juz 13 days awayyyyyy...here i come! soonnnnnn~~

jiayou everyone! All the best too! :D

hongsiew :)

2008-10-29T18:43:00.003+08:00

Everyone! i declare dat war starts! bye everyone~ i'm goin to war liaooooooooo

Take care everyone! u all shall c me again soonnnn~

i shall chiong thru the A lvl and do many many many things and go disturb many many many ppl!! wahahha

Wish me luck then everyone! I wish u all all the best too! jiayou! jiayou! jiayou! We shall gain our freedom soonnnnnn~

i'm goin to war liaooooooooo.... Hope i wun die a horrible deathhhh on the battle field!
(hope u all noe wat i'm sayin...wahhaha)

hongsiew :)

2008-10-28T18:56:00.003+08:00

Wahhhhhhh 1 more freakin day and its A lvl for MEEEE!!!!

Dont wan to admit..but still actually quite scared...scared...scared...scared..scared

And i'm actually nt feelin v well this few days..stomuch protestin..no idea y..seriously hope by my paper i wun hv any trouble wif my body sia...

1 more day!! 1 more freakin day!! 1 more stupid freakin dayyyy and dats it mann! i'm goin to war sia..

Ah nvm...guess i will juz try my best and dats all i can say..be it the results gd or bad..i hv alrdy tried my best..so i juz hv to accept watever results dat come out..so jiayou everyone! :D

Lookin forward to after As!

hongsiew :)

2008-10-24T13:29:00.002+08:00

Recently had been goin sch to study...my A level is in like 5 days time..first paper on next thurs..chinese paper...haiz..no idea..tryin my best to study..cant help but feel v tired and feel like givin up at some point of time..but i noe i only hv 1 choice and its to con't chionging...and my current plan is to buy lots and lots of choc to give me energy..dats probably the only thing i can think of to give myself energy to pull thru all these...

Ystd decided its the last day i'm goin sch to study..frm today onwards till my first paper next thurs i will juz stay at hm and mug like shit..but hopefully i can do dat lahh..

And i suddenly got this feelin ystd might b the last time i'm seeing everyone in sch for the last time..ppl who i noe..nt in my clss de...suddenly felt kinda sad..now dat i think..i didnt quite hv this kind of feelin when i graduate in sec sch..mayb its bcos now in ny i've made more frends who r really worthy frends..frends who r real and nice...frends whom i enjoy hanging out wif even though its juz a short while..frends or ppl who dun hv any idea how much i value them..and also our clss..the lovely 0732..y didnt we get close earlier..wished dat we could hv more time to hang out and interact as a clss..i will definitely miss my sch life in ny although many ppl juz wan to get out of ny as fast as possible... how and wat will we bcome after the As...?

Today..i only noe dat my 2nd bro goin into army today when my mum called to ask whether he has gone out of hse...wat a sis i am huh...its kinda sad...how my family wrks...

Anw..now everyone shld hv nothin in their mind except chiongin for As..any other stuff regardless its family,relationships or watever it is..juz hv to cast aside for now..imagine As is juz gonna b over in abt 3 wks time..didnt realise its dat fast..really fast...

hongsiew :)

2008-10-18T14:25:00.006+08:00

Hi..ystd supposedly went sch for econs mock exam but in the end we juz took the paper and zao haha bfore dat we supposedly was to study in the clssrm but ended up takin pics again..funny expressions..slackin ard..playin cards..haha destress lah destress...below the few pics is use the burst mode to take de..four pics in a row..change of expressions...

Amanda's version... 1
2
3
4

Dom's version.... 1

2
3
4

Now cheryl's version.... 1

2
3
4

Before dat..cheryl and dom did the hand sign of 1, 2, 3 which some girls do to act cute..haha both of them look so funny..

hand sign 1

2
3

Then some random shots...

After dat we went to amk hub to buy potatoes..damn tasty sia...below is a pic taken of cheryl when she queuing up for mos...juz random lah haha

The day before..jiayu was like goin haywire..suddenly kept singin songs and in ultimate out of tune and messy lyrics haha really v funny lor..laugh until i stomuch pain...wan see vid of her singin can come find me haha cheryl was forced to b her fan and bcame the 'fortunate' fan to get her signature which cheryl could nt wash off for days...wat a 'fortunate' fan haha

Its actually v amazin how ppl r connected to each other..unknowingly...it might b the case where someone else is thinkin abt u or cryin bcos of u or smilin bcos of u yet u noe nothin abt this and juz lives happily ur own life without knowin how much dat person values u..so is all these worth it?..dunno...at least nt now...haiz..been eatin ALOT of choc these few days...haha

Everyone dun stress..when u stress...ppl ard u gets stressed too..and everyone stresses in a mess..but if stress can make u wrk better..den its nt dat bad..but to me stress is u juz hv to manage it..nt easy..but hv to...the right amt of stress might do u gd..but surely nt too much..so everyone jiayou! take care too...really impt nt to get sick at this point of time...

hongsiew :)

2008-10-16T09:37:00.007+08:00

Yo! Juz to post some pics here haha..abt the grad cere dat day...but firstly..on tue the sunset in sch was like reallyyy beautiful!! took these pics outside the container...the view there is real gd! Enjoy!

Now..abt the grad cere dat day..took all these pics frm sha haha Pics taken when the clss was at canteen slackin bfore the grad cere and later clss outin at pizza hut! Not all the pics here btw...

some of our clss guys playin cards...
eileen and me

mao cheng, borui, sha and nira
guys 'watchin movie' again
pervertic look...
eileen and sha
sha and me 'playin clappin'

lester and dom
most of 0732, our clss girls
tsuhui and me

At the pizza hut...divided into 2 tables..
1st table..bigger table too
2nd table..smaller table too...
DBSK mini fan club in 0732
dora so cute haha

elaine, sha and eileen

kaili actin cute/puffer fish

actin cute again haha

So dats abt all..been goin sch study these few days..i also dunno whether i'm being productive or not..but i'm studyin at my own pace which i dunno whether i can afford to anot..but nvm! Everyone... don't stress don't stress don't stress! ( taken frm jesse mccartney - leavin) hahaha jiayou everyone!! take care too! :D

hongsiew :)

2008-10-12T13:48:00.017+08:00

Yo! long time nv blog le..so got lots of things to blog..but mostly i will juz post all the pics lah..let pics say the stories...many many sweet and happy things happened for the past days...events nt in sequence..cos too many liao..

Firstly..its graduation day in sch! although its nt really graduation yet..this is the first time our whole clss went out tgt,although nt really whole clss, but still..the number is significant enuf! haha great clss outing! Went to eat at pizza hut at toapayoh..later we went to watch House Bunny at plaza sing...interestin show! but the guys' comments of the movie were like ''dots''..''wat movie is this??''..and mao cheng fell aslp durin the movie!! how nice....

At the grad ceremony in sch hall..cos we all too bored hearing the speeches so everyone juz started using camera takin pics haha
chialin, yvonne, kaili

lester and tiezheng

tsuhui and jiayu

nira and sha

cheryl's weird expression haha

After grad cere..went to photog meeting..mr lau gave us grad gift...took photog photo..although nt all photogs r here...

wanling,tsuhui,me and eileen at photog meetin after grad cere
wanling and me

cookies frm sha
grad gift frm nira..so sweet
cookies nira baked..damn tasty!
grad gift frm mr lau..v meaninful
grad gift frm maygee :)

Next is outing wif pebbles! first bernice and justi came sch..den we went motorshow at suntec..den we went to meet anqi for dinner...always feel great when hangin out wif pebbles...want more info on this..can go pebbles's blog..bernice posted more there...
At the motorshow...

dinner at newyork newyork

bernice,anqi,me,justina

Unglam pics of 3 of them eatin candy floss haha

Next is back in sch lib..me, cheryl, borui and amanda were studyin..and next few moment we lost our focus! hiaz haha started takin retarded and funny pics mostly posing wif ultraman! haha the ultraman was taken frm the small cake we bought for cheryl bday..btw she didnt wash it and yet bought it to sch..hahaha

cheryl immitatin ultraman hahaha
borui stuck the ultraman on his pen hahaha

amanda,sihan,borui (the one slpin) and cheryl
a super unglam pic we took of a guy in lib
borui 'kissing' ultraman
cheryl's 2nd immitation of ultraman
ultaman wif headphone hahaha

Next is cheryl's bday! we went to chomp chomp to eat! nice food! After we ate..we juz feel like hving 'sports day' so we went to sengkang..eileen's hse nearby to play bball! Dom and jerico joined us too..played till 10pm lor..next day still got sch somemore haha but play until v shuang!

bday girl wif bday cake

bday girl makin wish..

blow candle!
unglam pic of bday eatin chicken wing haha
sihan and amanda preparin the cake...

Before we went to eat at chomp chomp..i and amanda gave cheryl her present..custom made shoes by me and amanda! both of us spent alot of time drawin on the shoe lor..mann its really nt easy using paint to draw haha but i'm proud of my wrk! the white shoe is i draw de..the black shoe is amanda draw..both of us in charge of one side of the shoe...and we forced cheryl to wear it straight away in sch hahaha

On the same day..sometime earlier...cos we all dun wan go for 'gd mornin collegues' talk..so we went to N&B to eat..

came back sch to study after we ate...borui tryin to block me frm takin his pic

Lastly..is long time ago..we had photog outin! went to mr lau's hse! nice hse and scenery! had a fun time there! Sad..last photog outing le..photog ppl r really fun..always had great laughs when i'm hangin out wif them haha this photo taken frm james's flickr..

So..i will juz end here for now..still got some pics hven received yet..when received le will post again..haiz..kinda sad dat sch life is ending..cant really hv chance to hang out wif clss mates and frends in sch..its always like this..always when we r partin den we will noe to cherish and regret y we didnt get tgt more and noe each other more..i will definitely miss 0732 my clss..my frends in sch..photog frends..everyone i noe..but at least i still hv much of the memories of us tgt...

Lastly lastly..end off wif a beautiful cloud pic i took in the morning 6plus am outside me hse corridor..the cloud is v obvious..nice contrast colour...can clearly see the cloud ontop of the block...

hongsiew :)

2008-10-04T09:36:00.006+08:00

Yo on thurs 2nd oct, we went to cele sihan's bday! went to eat at botak jones (erm dunno how to spell) hahaha nice food! I & amanda bought a muffin as cake for sihan ahaha abit sad lah paiseh leh..but better than nothin rite haha

sihan desperately tryin to finish the muffin haha

Below dat choco is given to us by ms seah haha thks ms seah

Ystd we were studyin in the canteen...we got bored wif studyin and started playin ..both amanda and i lost to jiayu in sissors paper stone..so both of us had to let her write on our hands..and she wrote a freakin big one on my hand lor haha

my hand
amanda's hand
the winner/culprit, jiayu

On thurs nite..i got to noe this boy..navin..a v innocent and cute boy..think he suffers frm an illness but i dunno wats the name..he is v smart! amazingly smart and curious! He actually noes how to operate our phones and kinda loves tech haha I love his smile..real innocent smile..beautiful smile...cheers ppl up smhow..we tok to him..ask him wats his sch but we couldnt quite understand wat he is tryin to say..juz as we thot he is goin hm..he came back in juz a while and brought us a note which has his sch name on it! such sweet boy...he is alrdy 16 yrs old but innocent..we took pics wif him..and he also took pics of us..although he cant really hold the phone cam steadily but nonetheless..the pics he took r all v nice!

me, cheryl, navin and lester

navin looks soo cute in this pic haha

a pic navin took of lester..smhow lester's expression looks abit wrong

Ystd justina and bernice came to my sch to study tgt..but bernice pangseh us half way humph

ystd navin came again..he took pics of me and justina
navin took a pic of me..too close and me being unglam
navin took pic of us

navin...our cute little boy
look at how happy he is..

look at his innocent smile...

I think navin's goin to come sch find us every nite haha

hongsiew :)

2008-10-01T13:15:00.005+08:00

Yo firstly u see an orange wif smiley face on it..haha its given to me by maygee to cheer me up and tell me to eat more and eat vitamin c haha thks maygee! :)

Ystd stayed in sch to study but again bball ruined everythin haha only studied abit haha really abit..but playin bball cheers me up smhow too...we were also sittin in canteen chattin..and we started randomly takin pics haha there r still some other pics taken but nt to b shown cos its nt appropriate haha

dom lester and jiahao..nice effect

nice sunset..cheers me up too

dom actin cute

jiayu caught on photo

actin cute

another combination..now u can see jiahao in the 3rd pic

Then is sunset and more sunset..real nice

Lastly this pic below is taken when kaili is slpin haha i thot her pose was funny so took it lor haha look at how she put her hand and juz how she slps haha so cute mann so moral of story is when u all plan to slp and when i'm ard..ensure dat u slp 'gracefully'..if nt u will see ur beautiful slpin beauty pic on my blog hahha

and sry to cheryl..my mood isnt v stable these days..really sry..hope u dun mind...and dun emo also..dun stress hor

hongsiew :)

2008-09-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

Today celebrated kaili and jiayu bday haha once again HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY to both of u! :D (pic took frm cheryl blog haha)

Today i was still quite stony most of the time..but i'm really feelin better..tml playin bball again! yay! hurray! although my blister still hven recover..haiz..also many ppl bday comin up..busy busy busy..broke broke broke...tired tired tired..guess everyone r in the same state as me..haiz..i shall go prac math le..got stupid test tml..

hongsiew :)

2008-09-28T19:07:00.004+08:00

I thot i was feelin better..and no matter how much i dun wan to admit..i'm still nt feelin any much better some how...

Feel so tired..so heavy...so emo...cant focus at all...stonin alot..no energy at all...no mood at all...no appetite at all..amazingly over these few days i hv been eatin v little..almost like only one meal a day or even lesser..sometimes hungry but juz dun feel like eatin at all..feel v sick & tired..some times even feel like vomittin..dunno exactly wats wrong wif me...mayb i'm juz tired..and i'm really nt stressed by study..and this kind of mood hv been on and off...and my whole body is aching like dunno wat..obvious its bcos of the long hr of bball..but i dun regret playin anw

Haiz i seriously hate this..i dun like to b so distracted..so i'm tryin hard to get myself out of this stupid state..i thot i nid to tok to someone..or my frends actually..to make myself feel better..but yet i also dun really feel like tokin at all..sometimes i wan to tok but no one has time to listen..and i dun blame them...my frends hv helped me alot..i noe i hv to rearrange myself..ya i noe...i guess only i can pick myself up..and i noe i hv to..this is nt the time for me to fall dwn..although i dunno y i fell dwn..

I dun like to let my mood influence my frends..i dun wan to trouble them..everyone is busy..wif A lvl and their own stuff..everyone has their own prob too..i dun wan to trouble my frends..so i noe i shldnt remain like a stupid emo kid..nt as if i'm the only one wif troubles...so i shld pick myself up..yea i shld...so dun worry..seriously... everyone dun worry abt me...i will b back on track soon...real soon..i will make sure of this myself...

and i miss the pebbles...miss u all alot..

oh and juz to add in..i juz bathe and when i was bathing..suddenly my neighbour in the toilet started singin song..it was indeed loud and clear..nt to say abit off tune..but guess wats the great song she sang..the ans is ...S'pore nat'l athem...i didnt noe i had such patriotic neighbour mann..hahaha amazingly cheered me up without any reason..thks mann my patriotic neighbour...

hongsiew :)

2008-09-27T21:27:00.013+08:00

Yo everyone...i think i managed to rearrange myself...although nt yet fully..but i'm tryin...shld juz blog abt some previous happy stuff..

Firstly on 20th aug..i, dom & cheryl went to queenstown to buy things..and the photos below r taken on the bus wif cheryl & dom lookin quite retarded but funny haha

dom & cheryl smilin hugely

acting cute

After dat we went to amk hub to buy food for our clss chalet the next day, which is on the 21st... clement & lester joined us too

dom & lester lookin like a gay partner

choco banana marshmellow! omg so cool! 2 of my fav tgt! bought at candy empire

Then come the actual chalet...

took this juz outside our chalet rm

tsuhui, yvonne, jiayu & kaili took the small ferris wheel in E-hub at dwntown east
kaili & her corn
corn eyes
weight lifting set made frm corn haha
corn weight liftin

kaili & yvonne
kaili & yvonne
me & amanda
breezer mann

dom, eileen, cheryl & elaine mahjongin

at the bbq pit. amanda,me,theresa,lester,kaili & yvonne
same grp of ppl but wif clement in the middle

me & clement
theresa bbqing
next mornin at burger king after checkin out

After dat i, cheryl,amanda & lester went to arcade again..

This first vid below is taken at arcade on the day of chalet...para para dance by dom & lester haha they might kill me if they see this... u all might hv to tilt ur head to watch the vids..paiseh..and lower the volume first...

This vid is taken on the mornin when we r goin to check out..

Chalet & all were quite fun though...enjoyed ourselves bfore chiongin A lvl...gd dat the clss, although nt everyone, get to interact more...

Then ystd supposed to study in sch after lessons but..bball again make me failed to study haiz..but it was really v fun mann..it was v crazy cos we played frm ard 1.30 noon to 7 plus at nite leh its like the longest i hv played lor although we in between got rest lah..real fun..but my blister came back so damn pain sia...but i still wan to play bball again! damn shiok haha lets play again soon! haha

hongsiew :)

2008-09-23T13:12:00.003+08:00

More miseries hv been caused
things juz come floodin in
makin life more diff, more miserable, more suffocatin..
really dun wan all these things to flood in durin this period of time..
A lvl is alrdy makin life diff enuf
i'm juz any normal human
tired..v tired...
but cheryl say diff ppl r blessed in diff things...
and i think i'm blessed wif great frends & ppl ard me...
i'm truly grateful abt this..thks to my frends who has always been there for me..
thks for listenin to my troubles..
but somehow this doesnt seem to reduce much of my guilt & troubles
mayb i'm juz too pessimistic abt my life...
somehow my tap is juz nt within much of my control..
stubborn can cause ppl much miseries
ignorance can cause ppl much miseries
i dunno how to restrain myself..control myself...so things gt worse
i noe there r some ppl more miserable than me..
i nid to get a hold of myself..though v diff.. i nid time and strength...
forgive me..but i cant forgive myself
nt in the mood to blog abt the supposedly happy stuff happened in the last few days
mayb i will blog abt these soon..sry...& dun worry everyone...

hongsiew :(

2008-09-20T00:50:00.010+08:00

Yo..todae i & bernice & justi went to cafe cartel to eat dinner..last paper of my prelims..haha its been a v long time since we met up wif each other..stupid anqi didnt turn up todae..

After we ate..we went to the ''uncle place'' to sit dwn and chat..den this cute little handsome boy was slpin behind us..this is the second time i see this boy here wif his grandpa..we felt dat he is quite poor thing to b there slpin..abit no life for a kid..sad..but nonetheless he is really cute and handsome mann..

1st position

2nd position ..sooo cute..

Ystd we went sch to play MJ..but i didnt play at all lah..cant help but went to play bball again haha cheryl won freakin 19bucks i think..frm the MJ game ohman..she is awesome...haha...durin evenin i saw this beautiful cloud and sunset colour! its like OMG...damn nice mann..there is this one long line of clouds in the sky! nice pattern!

long stretch of cloud! like lightnin ! so nice!

our sch has such nice view mann

sunset! nice!

nice clouds!

Ystd bfore went to sch..went out wif bernice & anqi..went to vivo haha

bernice & anqi
anqi actin cute haha

bernice anqi & me
nice effect done by bernice wif lots of effort haha

taken by bernice..nice sky! nice pic too

outside the jamming rm haha cool place...aq's bf & frends jamming inside

Had great days meetin up wif the pebbles this few days..felt great! love ya all..we shall meet up soon haha had fun wif frends in sch too! yay and goin to hv chalet on sun haha lookin forward to it! gonna post some more pics soon hehe

hongsiew :)

2008-09-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hi..i'm feelin better..but nt much better..haiz..anw todae when i look up at the sky frm my block i saw this damn pretty damn nice cloud pattern! seriously nice like dunno wat..v beautiful..makes ppl feel much better..nice colour and pattern..

and ystd we went to cheryl's hse and we bought bubble tea and the colour was real nice haha

Todae i juz bought this pair of shoe which seem abit ah lian to me but i dun care lah i desperately nid a pair of shoe cos my current $5.90 or $7.90 slipper which hv been loyal to me for dunno how many long yrs finally abandon me so i juz anyhow buy one lah..i juz bought it for abt 15min and i destroyed it..look at the before and after photo..cos bernice say the flower too girly and all so i pluck them out...

BEFORE

AFTER

So dats abt all..thks to my frends who spend time tokin to me..made me feel better..thks :D

hongsiew :) :(

2008-09-15T20:56:00.002+08:00

Todae was a bad day..real bad day..first time i screwed my exam for the reason dat i cant control my emotions and feelins well...i hate it...durin hist exam my eye lids were like soooo heavy and i seriously feel like slping and when i rest my head on the table i nearly fell aslp..many many times lor...so i kept tellin myself dun fall aslp..cos if i really fell aslp..it would b 3 hrs later when my paper ends...so i kept movin abt my seat..and hist is the paper which i really wan to get it done well..

Its really in a mess..total mess recently..tap water juz runs haywire...makin me feel really tired and slpy..bad dat such things happen durin prelim..durin nearin Alvl...realised i'm nt as gd in controllin my emotions and feelings recently..now my mind is filled wif many many things..gonna explode...i dunno how to deal wif these...

I nid time..juz nid time to let me rearrange and think..hiaz..screwed exam mann..i'm tired...i swear nt to let myself land into such situation again..nv ever...first time i hate myself so much...

hongsiew :(

2008-09-14T11:47:00.002+08:00

Now the truth is right in front
The lvl of guilty shot up
Feel bad..ultimately bad
Shldnt hv gone into there
where nt supposed to
now its all too late
& dunno wat is to b done
sry is the only word could b think of now
but noe it wouldnt help
feel really bad...

hongsiew :(

2008-09-12T09:04:00.002+08:00

Yo...todae stayed back in sch to study after chinese paper..and i left my nike blue water bottle in i-space ahhhh it better b still there on mon mann...took some pics in sch again haha we played bball again todae hahha wif cheryl amanda and jiahao.. addicted liao die lahh haha but it was really fun!!! and we played wearing our full uniform can haha damn hot lor sweatin like dunno wat haha

i'm shock i actually managed to catch the moon!! stare hard to see it hahha

nice clouds pattern again haha

took this in lib haha some story behind this lahh

amanda & cheryl haha

hongsiew :)

2008-09-10T19:00:00.001+08:00

Nice sunset and cloud patterns i took in sch few days ago..take a look and ur mood will b better..

hongsiew :)